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阳阳才4岁，却对生死问题十分敏感。这两天一直给我讲宋（庆龄）奶奶的故事。最后总要强调一下宋奶奶去世了。后来听'曹操'这首歌，也要问：曹操去世了吗？我告诉她曹操是古代的人，当然去世了。接下来就是：宋奶奶是现代的人，为什么去世了呢？。。。。。

其实，在回答她这些问题的时候，我心里一直很不好受。一个如此敏感的孩子，不知道将来她怎么接受亲人的离去。我们是晚育模范，在孩子们还没有足够成熟的时候，我们已经老了。当孩子们在我的怀里安然入睡的时候，我觉得她们是那么需要我们的保护。可是我们会保护多久？

还好我们有两个孩子，他们会互相关心，一起分担/分享家庭中的喜怒哀乐。。。。。。

今天的话题好沉重。还是结束吧！

so okay i have been talking a lot about bout this guy named jeff daniels i said i liked him when i really dont i just said i liked him to have some1 to like so i don't like any1 right now but i do want a boyfriend because i c all these gurls with boyfriends at like track meets when i am with no1 i want a guy who will let me were his jacket kuz all my other boyfriends just grabbed me by the waste but i want him to tell me he loves me just out of the blue and always kiss me i mean i'm not ugly or fat i am just i dont really no y i just like shy guys who wont asks a gurl out

lookin 4 luv

♥kitkat♥

ps melanie and cameron have been spaending way to much time with eachother its really weird

it must be party season in the past two days i have been invited to a wedding a 30th birthday a 21st birthday 11 th birthday and an open house barbque arn't i the flavour of the month . and as all women say i haven't got a thing to wear so looks like a shop till i drop soon and by the end of next month i will be in debt and need new kidneys from all the booze .loll only joking i dont drink that much must be old age setting in or something .at least it gets me out and about an see some friends that i havent seen in years

it must be party season in the past tow days i have been invited to a wedding a 30th birthday a 21st birthday 11 th birthday and an open house barbque arnt i the flavour of the month . and as all women say i haven't got a thing to wear so looks like a shop till i drop soon and by the end of next month i will be in debt and need new kidneys from all the booze .loll only joking i dont drink that much must be old age setting in or something .at least it gets me out and about an see some friends that i havent seen in years

I was so happy coming home from work today...I really have no idea why...all of that changed though once I got home...David left and went to his friend Paul's house ...he called my cell and left me a voicemail...he called my voicemail not me...I was so upset that I called him and spoke to him...he was angry and told me that he was going out for a while and that he would not be home anytime soon...I begged him to come home, but he would not...he told me that all of the things we had talked about in therapy were BS and that he did not want to be married to me...that hurt so much...and hung up on me...

I spoke to my mom and she told me to come and stay with her, I told her no that I was not just going to leave...I did call David's parents and let them know what was going on...David called my family in February and started all of this, but did not think that his family should be involved...his mom and dad were so upset...they just dont understand what went wrong...

My mom called my Dad,who then called me...he told me that this was hard but that i will persevere...he then called David to talk tohim...David didnot answer the phone...David did finally call my dad back and they talked...i did not hear from david until 230am when he called to say that he would not be home...

How is everyone doing so far this week? I hope yourweek went well and this weekend be the same or even better....

As me my week I pretty much hung around here as usual. I did get outdoors and enjoy the warm weather this week though. It findly warmed up again here after being windy for two weeks here and snowed one day here. I guess spring is findly here they say. I hope so. As this weekend I really do not have nothing planned I know of.